Chocolate delays world. When I am feeding chocolate, everything is on hold: anxiety, panic, frustrations, and danger. Chocolate offers a intense richness, a taste perception of life, a euphoriant sense impression of extra. I admiration drink in tons forms, from M&M's, to foreign Lindt balls, to pitch-black fudge ice in a pop-top can, to Hershey's dull hot chocolate bite-sized morsels.
It is serious to eat solitary a slim beverage. I borrow myself once I quid it up briskly and slurp it like another feed. To eat auburn correctly, one essential let it melting in the oral fissure beside opinion closed, opinion the tasty, gluey fast velvety coat the lingua. It is likewise tricky to eat really virtuous brown softly. I in the main purr a long ummmmmmm of female smugness once enjoying specified a gratification.
I have strategies to sustenance from consumption auburn. I think over after lunch, enjoying the taste perception of enthusiasm without calories, I sweep up my dentition after uptake my day coffee, and I grant tan away to my parent so that it's not in the place of abode. But it comes subsidise as gifts from another sources, wise that it is admired and treasured in my presence.
My daughter loves chocolate, too. A inheritable trait, I postulate. Sometimes my mother and my daughter and I relish hot chocolate together, a female bonding of aesthetic gratification.
We hand over respectively different gifts of Easter Bunnies, Christmas balls, and Valentine confections, past cut our glorious bounty near each other than. We mask it from different house members, and never apologize for succumbing to such insatiable abasement. We have habituated the men in our lives to buy it for us as all right by expressing our enjoyment and pleasure as lip-smacking, vocalized walking on air. It's as if we legal instrument our hot chocolate endowment givers to be voyeurs of our gratification.
I have a young woman helper who refers to hot chocolate as the fourth basic matter mob. She grub it publicly, in front of people, as an alternative of holding confidential drink roger sessions wherever no one can reckon bites or pieces. Self-righteous jailers they are, those indignant souls who penalize us. Sometimes it is us, ourselves, our rupture personalities captivated and hating our passion. My in-law denies her offspring from chocolates' ugly influence, but yields one-sidedly to its defense. Chocolate calls her name, beckoning her in a trance- like state to locomote its' seductive aroma to the room. I cognize that aroma well, it cannot be restrained in a flimsy box, a foil wrapper, or an insulated icebox.
Sometimes I eat russet to consequence me up, or to livelihood on on the job once I impoverishment to stem and proceeds a nap. Much in to a carrot on a glue. A self-imposed bribe to keep hold of pushful. Of course, this payment has gloomy outcome once my jeans don't compress.
I suppose the leather present is the addiction. But dependence to what? Chocolate? Or ambitious to achieve? What a shame that my instance is tired in actions that don't flash calories. Striving, planning, dreaming, persisting, locale boundaries, checking off chores, reviewing goals, profitable bills.
I stay away from to distribute up beverage. I cognise women who have. Women bound up to light. I'm sworn to enjoying my existence. I have standard opposite limitations, and I prohibit remaining desserts, bread, and alcohol during the period of time. But potable has its forte.
© Ana Tampanna